Back on track
Well, since I last wrote, I went on another binge. Just went downhill from there. Still trying to figure out how to cut that off, take control of myself and I have yet to figure it out. I got a lot of good comments about ideas and things and I was surprised at how many did understand exactly what I felt. Living over in China, nobody understands how I feel, how I get out of control but can’t stop, how I eat and don’t want to eat more but can’t help it. To know you guys are struggling with the same thing makes me feel not so isolated. One of the ideas I was given was about when the “authority figures” were out of the house, I ate so why dn’t I change it to where I am the authrotiy figure;. PRetty good idea and I have triedd oing that but when I do that that is where my “all or nothing” comes in. It is the only way I can control myself and keep control I think I need to just concentrate on that for right now and don;t worry about how to balance it out till later. I know my body likes living healthy, not just the weight but also blood blisters in my mouth from eating sweets/processed carbs, bad stomach and other things. My body is talking loudly and I have to choose to listen or not. I want to listen because I feel terrible when I don’t.
So, I started back on track. I started the new school semester on Tuesday and decided that if I am starting that and back to routine, then I will start eating right on the same day and time. Sometimes routine really helps me where nothing else does. I have to say, yep, the routine has helped tremendously! I have been back on track and doing well. Tomorrow starts the weekend so will have to see how that pans out but I am determined to make it this time. Well, I really have too. I have some “fat” clothes I can still use in the summer but winter comes and I have no clothes I can wear. I had them all cut down to fit me so if I don’t lose for winter, I will be a really cold Rachel. Living over here, there isn’t the option of buying more clothes until I am thinner again so back on track, making a come3back and reaching goal!
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It’s great to hear that you are back on track. I couldn’t even imagine how it would be to live anywhere other than the States so I can’t say I understand how you feel to live in China and not having many options with people understanding and clothing not fitting. Keep up the hard work.
Hey girl,
glad to see ya back. Binging is something that is really hard to control. Especially if your like me and have been doing it for like 20 years. The only thing I know to do right now is when I do cave in and binge..I try really hard to do a couple of things. 1. not let it be more then one binge–try to get right back on the wagon with the next meal. 2. It helps me to get outside–I like working in the yard and it keeps me out of the kitchen. Anyway, Binging is a hard one girl. I’ve read tons of books on the subject but nothing has really helped. However, we can do the best we can to minimize the damage. Good luck girl.
girl, I feel ya. I know last winter, I just couldn’t get back on track. Finally I went back and read my blogs from the beginning, and started WAY back over from the beginning… and was JUST starting to lose again when YOU KNOW WHAT!!! lol, I guess I could have written it out, I think everyone knows what by now!
hope you can find what works for you, I know that in then next 2/3 weeks that I’ll be back at square one AGAIN….
take care