The 72s blues!
I am so frusterated with myself! I told my husband just to lock me in a room and feed me when I have to be fed. That would be the only way. Hate this stupid weight. Yesterday , while i was walking with my youngest daughter (she is 20 months and wants to run everywhere) a man stopped me and said, you looked really beautiful before but now you are getting fat again. Gee, thanks. But not only him but there are many others who comment about my weight. Yep, this is China. But I try not to get mad or anything because it does keep me in mind about my weight but sometimes, ok guys, I do look in the mirror everyday.
My biggest trouble, curse and fault is 72kg which is about 158.4 pounds. Why ? Because anytime I get into the 150’s, my body starts to turn against me. It seems to like that spot and fights me terribly about getting below it. No, this is not the best place for my body to be because it shows badly on my frame. I am petite and small boned and this weight doesn’t look good on me. But for whatever reason, my body like sthis weight and everytime I start to get lower, I have a fit with temptations, cravings and so on. I get to feeling tired, headache and so on until I have that bad food I really want and then boom, back up again. I have been doing this for years. Even right before I got married, I got down to 154 and then stopped. I am sick of this number and want to get below it again. Just not sure how to bypass by stupid body. Hmm, do you think they would sew my mouth shut??
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Oh no, lets not do that! No locking yourself in a room and letting hubby feed ya either lol. I do understand your frustrations–I bounce up and down. However, I know its my own fault. I lose weight and then slack off the next week. Girl, I wish I knew the answer to this–its like the devil chasing after ya when you hit a certain weight–lets skip meals and lets skip snacks–oh, you want candy (nice chocolately candy)…crap like that lol.
You know what though, we are both smart girls & here at buddyslim there are lots of us–so anyone got the solution–share lol. Lets brainstorm girls!
Aww, Rachel ! I am sorry you are struggling ! So, people just say right to ur face u r getting fat again? Wow. I actually showed my first gain today since January when I really started this thing. I am not going to let it discourage me — we can do this mama !
Rachel!!!!!!!!! So sorry! Just hang in there. You KNOW how to do THIS!
It seems easier for me when I eat about 4 times a day in small portions. I allow for a small breakfast, moring snack, lunch, afternoon snack and small dinner. I don’t deny myself foods I like, I just eat smaller portions by limiting myself to less than 200 calorie snacks. I use a measureing cup and measure out all of my snacks. A lot of work but keeps me from eating the whole bag!!! Lots of water helps me feel full. If I get the munchies I grab an apple or snack. I’m new at this but these changes have made me feel like a new woman…and I’ve already gone from 151 to 146 so I’m stickin gwith what works for me. Good luck! You can do it!!!
Rachel, you know it’s not your body that’s against you, it’s your mind. What’s in your mind that is afraid or threatened when you start to get below a certain weight? Have you considered seeing a counselor? Is that something that you could do in China? If not, just being aware that you are sabotaging yourself for a reason might help you find out why? I know you can do this, but it may take some real work on your mindset. Good job on what you have accomplished. I know it just seems to get harder the farther you go, but it’s not impossible. Don’t give up, we’re all here rooting for you.
