From Cocoon to butterfly

Well, still doing well and keeping my temptations under tight control. When I lax off, that is when I fall. Today is really rough. ONe of the reasons were because it was Saturday. For whatever reason, when my routine goes off, I can’t keep on plan  as much. Home, nobody to see what I eat (kids don’t count) and so on. Then my daughter has ballet rehersal today and I was not too happy with allt he stuff that was going on. Then she wants us to do this and do that just when I thought I had all I needed and today is a miserable day with rain, cold and so on. IT all plays into wanting to go off. Thinking that eating that food will give me a warm feeling,  Make me feel better and so on. But why is it when I am caught in the throes of cravings, I don’t remember that it makes me feel horrible, stomach feels too full and I feel trrible guilt. Strange how emotions turn us to food.

But I knew that temptation would happen and very much happen today so I kept strong. I got my attention on other things and also thought about how I would lose all that I have gained (ok, strange to say that here but true) so now I am feeling stronger and better. So, day six is almost done and I will be a weekd one by tomorrow, yeah!