From Cocoon to butterfly

no, I am not a vampire hehe. But I have fallen in love with one, Edward Cullen from the Twilight series. Have read the whole series several times and still reading it. Well, the first book deals iwth temptation. Edward meets Belle for the first time and she is almost irristable to him, the smell of her blood calls to him like drugs to a drug addict. He almost can not resist. Anyway, When I was reading the book, I could see a lot of things that paralle  the journey for losing weight also and the temptations we face.

I have taken some blurbs from the book and just want to think and blog about it. If you haven’t read the book, let me explain where we are. Edward is in love with Belle but has to fight the temptaion of destroying her. He spends time with her and little by little, can deal with her more. They went to the forest one afternoon and it was very rough for him. Later that night, they spend time together and he can actually get close to her. She asked him why:

“It’s not easy. This afternoon I was still undecided. YOu see, I wasn’t sure if I was strong enough. And while there was still that possibility that I might be overcome, I was succeptable. Until I made up my mind that I was strong enough that there was no possibility at all that I would.   Mind over matter”

Think about it, he was a vampire, he had to have blood. There was no getting around that. It was something that called out to him, every day, eveyr hour, eveyr minute. We are like that. We are human, we have to eat. You can’t run away from it, you can control it but that is all. We have to control our lust also and like Edward, we have temptations. Yes, he had to drink blood but he also made a concious choice to drink Animal blood.

“Just because we’ve been dealt a certain hand…it doesn’t mean we can’t choose to rise above..to conquer the boundries of a destiny that none of us wanted”

He had to make a certain choice. He could not outrun it, he could not pretend it wasn’t there but he had to choose to rise above it. We have to choose to rise above wanting to over eat, wanting to eat bad things.  Yes, there are thin people there who never have to worry about their weight but then there is our destiny, we eat any little thing and we gain weight. That is our bodies and we did not choose it but we can choose to control how we deal with our bodies and how we will control it.

Even he admited, fighting temptation is not easy. “You see, I wasn’t sure if I was strong enough. And while there was still that possiblity that I might be overcome, I was succeptable”

We have to decide outright what we are going to do. There is no riding the fence in losing weight and keeping it off. While we don’t strongly decide what we will do, there is always that possibility, always that chance, we will fall off and gain that weight. Not even a chance, if we think about it and want to, eventually we will do it. Even Jesus said, what is in the heart of man, that he is. We are what we think. Try it one day, think about something for one day or every day for a week, in that week, you will do what you did not want to do. I have dealt and did that before. What I did not want to do, I still thought about, dreamed about , and so on. What happened, I eventually did what I did not want to do even though I really did not want to do it. If Edward did not decide exactly what he wanted, he would always be overcome, he would kill her. He knew this and we know this. Until we strongly decide what we are going to do, we will fall every time. We have to lodge it so firmly in our head that we are going to eat right and there is NO chance to fall off because we can’t. Edward could have always said, I will try but he realized, as long as he wasn’t sure, he would always face that chance.  He knew this was life and death. Yes, weight isn’t alway7s life and death but I feel it is all about life.  So, how did Edward decide he could be around his worst temptation? ” Until I made up my mind that I was strong enough that there was no possibility at all that I would (kill)” Pretty much he had to decide there there was no possibility, no chance no situation. He had stress, he had all kinds of things happen but he decided that there was no possibility that he could. I have to be like that. I have to decide, ther is no possibility that I will go off, I have to determine to fight the temptation. It will always be there, I will always have to see it but as you fight it day after day, it does get easier. It doesn’t go way and sometimes it can be stronger on some days more then others but we have to determine not to do it. It is the matter of life and death to us. Is anyone happy to be overweight? No, it makes us miserable, we don’t want to go out much, we are crabbier with others and ourselves, we kill ourselves by not being happy. When we lose weight we feel better about ourselves, we dress better, we are happier, we have life!

WE have to determine we will not succomb no matter what. Sure, we think, but I had a bad day, I did not sleep much and so on. THink about Edward. If he had a bad day, took a bite out of Belle, could he just say, oh, I had a bad day or any other excuse, no. It was a matter of life and death. So now, when I want to eat bad stuff, I have to think of it, do I really want to give up my life? Think of Belle, should I kill her or me. No, So  today is a new day and today

Rachel’–1  blood suckers-0