I did it~!
The week was an almost success but in way, a total success. I was able to make it five days before I fell. I did not realize at the time why I fell because I thought it was just me but looking back, I realized it was because there were emotions I did not know how to deal with. You see, there is a Canadian woman here that married a chinese man and their marriage was way too quick and the results are not good. I am still trying to figure her out but in time, I will post about her, perhaps it can help me find a way to help her. But the trouble is that I don’t feel she cares about being helped, her marriage or anything. She is miserable but blaming her husband for it when she needs to look at herself. Anyway, all in all it disturbs me because I want to help so much. When she left Sat. I just wanted to snack on ick so bad. I did not realize it was because of the emoitons she stirred in me, the hopelessness of watching her life spiral out of controla nd can’t help her if she will not help herself. So, I caved and ate and yes, ate too much although I did realize that after just one piece of ick, I was fine but I continued eating.
The success was that they next day I got right back on plan. Usually I try and fail miserable the next day and then the next and so on. But I did it. Today is day 3 so getting there once again. DId my weigh in today and …. lost 10 pounds !! Yeah! Got my 100 avi back but I also a bothered that I could have done better if I hadn’t fell Sat. but hey, I am still estatic over losing 10 poiunds and have the initive to go on and further. Going down!
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YAY on getting back on track! I knew knew knew you could and WOULD! I am sorry to hear about your friend. I am guessing you can relate to some of the struggles she is having and that is why it upset you so much. It must be very hard to be somewhere so new and different. I know you would be a great help if she were willing. I am so excited for your TEN pound loss! Stick with it sweetie, u’ll get there
Maybe the struggle that this woman had when she got married stirred up some memories of difficulties you had when you moves out to China first. I know from reading your posts that you dont get to go home much, and when you do, you’re so excited and happy to be home. Maybe that’s where the binge stemmed from?
If this is what causes the binge, then maybe you should talk to a friend about your past emotions. I know you’re settled now… but maybe unconsciously those old emotions are still lurking there, waiting for an opportunity like the one that just happend to come to the surface and cause a binge.
Just a thought! Good to see you back on track, and congrats on the fantastic loss!