From Cocoon to butterfly

Thanks ladies for all your c omments on my calgon post! It has been rough and I have to say, my husband has been a trooper through it all, allt he nagging, raging, fussing and all the wonderful things we do when we have PMS> The thing that bothers him the most is my lack of interest in sex. I had to laugh at Khemerbeauty wanting to eat more then sex. I know the feeling!  But he has been so great to be patient with me and I thank GOD I have an understanding husband, well, confused a bit but he is dealing witht he hope that Santa Claus brings him his wife back again hehe. But last night, after a binge again! He convinced me to go for a foot and back massage. The foot massage was *yawn* Ok, I am still having PMS so forgive me. The back massage was nice because it wasn’t just the back but they get your back, neck, face(which was wonderful by the way because I have had a headache for days) and legs. I would never had a man do this but with a woman, she did small talk with me and relaxed me and it did feel good. I was able to go to sleep much better then usual although I still sweated like I was in a sauna. But when I woke up, I felt better. I feel a little bit more in control. PLus, I think writing on this forum and knowing that I wasn’t crazy with all your comments really helped. Sometimes I feel like I am in the dark and don’t know what to do. Some of you suggested going to another doc. but what you don’t undersntad, you can’t do that here. There is the one doctor and that is it. So, that is why I am going to an American doctor despite having no health insurance int he US. Going to cost me a bundle but better then my sanity, yes? But I do feel much better so I think all the hugs and calgon you sent me on the buddyslim helped! Thank you. I even feel a renewed interest to get back to my weight loss, soemthing I have been feeling terrible about lately this month. Don’t know if this feeling will last but I am grasping it firmly for this time!   I finish my meds tonight so we shall see if TOM decides to show up again. Isn’t it crazy, when you don’t want it, it comes but when you want it, nope! But I will wait the 7 days the doc said and guess what, it would be christmas then that if I still have nothing I will go back to the doc. What a present heheh. But Ir eally don’t wnat to go back beause I know what she willd o, just give me more meds on top of it. Not sure what to do about this. I will keep you guys posted, that is , if you are interested. But I have got to get t his thing under contorl because I DON”T want to gain the weight back!! I already hate what I have done thus far.