mindlessness
I have a problem that I have been dealing with and really not sure how to deal with it. Not sure where to lay the blame but I think it is due to the cold days and winter. Maybe it has to do with the amount of weight I have lost, I am not sure really but when the weather was warmer, I did not have the same problem. My problem is that I really want to eat. I am hungier then usual. Usually, when I come home, I am hungry but now, I could eat a house by the time I come home to eat! When I sit down, I just want to eat and eat and then keep eating and it is bothering me really bad. Is it winter and this is the body’s way, the way we were made when we needed those fat stores to survive? I am having to be really really careful now because I have the desire to binge, to eat more and snack and I can’t do that. Today, I came home so hungry for lunch and mixed my soup with my veggies and ate and it was so good. By the time I was more then 1/2 way there, I was getting full and I felt it but I kept going. It was about the amoutn of food I usually eat but usally I leave a bit in the plate because I want to not be part of the clean plate club but today, I would not stop. I did not overeat but I don’t feel good in how I almost felt I was out of control, mindless really. I have been feeling that more and more about eating> Sometimes I get up and think , I have had enough, I just want to eat what and when I want. This is not me folks! I have lost 120 pounds and I am happier then I have ever been in my life! But I have those feelings that I am trying to contend with> I was sitting at work trying to figure out what brought that mood on to me today. There were several reasons. One, the scale went up from Sat. morning to Monday morning up 2 ounces for no reason. That bothers me because that was two days of eating on plan only to go up some, why would it do that. So, that was bothering me but I got my new avi and was happy about that but still did not feel so happy though. I think, yeah, that is good but I still have up to 150 pounds to get too. Just a little depressed I suppose. Then I was going to try and talk to the leader of a kindergarten I want my daughter to go too and it is so hard to get info. from there. Why is it only one person knows what you need and they are never there! That irritated me. Really, there was no good reason for me to feel not in control but I have been feeling that for quite a few weeks now, pretty much when winter weather really hit. I am wondering what I can do to stay in control? I have been keeping myself on tight reign about this but do I have to struggle with this every winter. Now, I keep strict control over myself but once at goal, how to control this. How to get past this feeling? Do you get past this feeling? How do you keep that control over what you eat and portions when you feel that mindlessness coming on, that real hunger that comes? What do you do. I went with my daughter to buy some fried things(chinese) and she was talking about how good it smelled and I agreed and said I could eat one of everything they were selling and I really meant it. If I was ‘t losing weight, I would have bought one of each and would have eaten every one of them! Of course, I did not but knowing that the possibility was there and it wasn’t impossible for me made it scary for me because I want to reverse that kind of thinking, I don’t want to have that thinking in me because I can’t be liek that anymore, ever! I hate feeling that hopelessness feeling. IT is not hopeless and I know that, goodness, I have already lost a lot and I can make it. But even today, when I was putting the dishes in the kitchen., I felt fat. For goodness and honestly I felt like I did at 257 pounds ad there was no difference in it. Why is that. Anybody know??
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Just because you’ve lost a load of weight, your head doesnt necessarily believe it. It will continue to tell you that you’re fat. That’s how I felt. I’m thinner now than I’ve been since primary school, but I still feel fat. It’s getting a bit better now, because my b/f is constantly telling me how thin I am. Maybe start telling yourself every morning and evening that you’re gorgeous. Pick one part of you that you like and that you think looks thin and focus on that.
It takes a LONG time for your brain to catch up with your weightloss. Give it time. You look totally different from where you started from.
Oh and I totally get you about wanting to eat more in the winter. The past few months here in Ireland have been vicious and cold…. I’ve just wanted to eat and eat and eat… it takes all my willpower not to.
It’s so true, food calls out to me in the cold winter weather here in Oregon. The cooking of it, smelling it, eating …..all comforts against the harsh, cold rain, snow, fog, clouds that never end. Steam up the windows with a pot of stew with hot bread….. oh my God! Who wants a small salad and an orange. Cottage cheese…? I think it’s true, our bodies call out for the extra calories, fat… insulation against lean times and cold weather. How do I tell my brain, stop…it’s not true, we will eat tomorrow. We don’t need extra fat to keep us warm, we have heat in our homes, warm clothes. Some primal urges just won’t go away. We have to overpower them. Be strong! We are not bears that have to store up enough fat to get us through the winter months.
I agree..I really believe winter brings on our instinct to “fatten” up and make ourselves warmer. but Sandy, the Queen Mother, is right.I would drink something hot when I come in to cook/eat. I think it might signal your brain to slow down a bit.
Rachel,
Forgive me for getting so far behind on the blogs… it’s been crazy around here lately, and I have to prioritize, so of course my family and I have come before my buddyslim family and friends…
Here’s what I’ve been doing this winter when I am also craving more, um, I guess comfort food, just more… je ne sais quoi… it’s really an intangible quality… but anyway, back to what I was saying… I’ve been drinking my water warmer… no ice water, I don’t drink it from the fridge, not usually even straight from the tap, I’ve been letting it sit out to room temp. And the other thing that really satisfies me is meat… just plain meat, not battered and deep fried or anything, just plain ol’ MEAT. Give m4 3/4 ounces of broiled/boiled/sauteed beef/chicken/fish and a liter of 65 degree water and I’m set.
idk if that will help you out, but I’ve found the days I reach out to carbs or whatever when I’m really finding myself ravenous, I’m not feeling satisfied the way I do with MEAT. Non starchy veggies with it helps out too, but I find that bread/potatoes, etc just don’t help.
