From Cocoon to butterfly

Well, finished supper and made my soup to put in the fridge for next week> I like to prepare things early so I will have it ready all week and there is not a chance to fall off the path. But the smell is so wonderful and today I have had such a rough day. Lots of bad classes, TOM is coming soon and just bought a bag of candy and chocolate for the kids that my DH ate before they ever had a chance so had to replace it…

But you know, it is all an excuse. So many people I read about talk about I ate this and that bad things becuase of this and that. Humans have always been the best excuse givers ever. Think back to the orginal humans, Adam and Eve. They were perfect, but what happen, they could not resist that ick. They just had to have it and when God asked them why, they had an excuse, all of them. She made me do it and by the way God, you gave her to me so you are to blame also, …. The snake decieved me…. and so on. Excuses have been a common  “get out of jail free” card that we all seem to use. I think we have gotten to the point where we don’t even realize it. Like I just did in the top of the blog ” Rough day, lots of bad classes” and so on. I had thought that right htne and then when I blogged it, I realized what I was doing. Yes, cravings get bad with the hormones and all that, yes, I want to snack during the rough times but they are all excuses. I realize that it what it is. Circumstance don’t force ick in my mouth, I do. It is how I react to the situation that will determine what I do. I know one lady that does well in the month but once ick comes, she gives herself permission to go off track and then spends the next month catching up to what she lost. And every time she says, I just can’t stop it because TOM and so on so on. Never take the blame ourselves, always got to blame something. But in reality, we have to blame ourselves because we do have a choice. Did Eve really have to listen? If she had kept herself busy she would not have been around the tree and by the way, what was she doing near the tree anyway? What are YOU doing near that chocolate?? It whisper suductively to you and you reach and touch it but you know you shouldn’t. You walk away and do is successful a couple of times but it keeps in your thoughts. Like the fruit did to Eve. How do we respond? For me, it is putting ick out of sight and reach. It is coming here to blog and be accountable to you guys. What would have happened if Eve had gone to GOd and told HIM what the snake was doing? Instead, she had the inner tourmoil inside , she made up her mind to deal with it herself instead of trying to find support. God knew what was going on but was waiting to see what SHE would do about it. What are you going to do about it? For me, I come here to blog and get my mind off ot it. By blogging, I can see my patterns of thinking (thought I was talking about you didn’t you but it is really talking about me) I saw an age old habit of, well, because of this happening and that, I should and can eat this and that. But inf act, that get out of jail free card is actually the card that says “Go directly to jail, do not pass go, do not…” We are actually putting ourself in a prison of excuse making when we do the “because of this” and “well, I can’t help it” To be free, we have to seek support, get out of reach of ick, find new habits to make to replace the old. You can’t stop an old habit and not have something to fill it. But really, making these excuses are keeping us in a prison and we can’t get out of it as long as we think we are “free” Don’t we realize that the more we excuse what we are doing,t he more we relie on the excuses. We can never be really free. Yes, TOM is rough, every woman alive knows that but it is a fact of life, it comes every month without fail (unless you are the big PG) But it will always come. If you don’t learn how to deal with it now, will you ever? Yes, we have rough days, fact of life. There will never be a time where you have “reached it” no more bad times. Fight with the DH, yep, fact of life also. Kids are bad, another fact. I could continue to list them but really, they all come down to one sentence, FACT OF LIFE. You can’t stop them, they will always be there and even when we die, guess what, still here. THey will outlive all of us here. So, what to do with the facts of life.

Ok, let’s take pregnancy. Fact of life. If you have unprotected sex, you will get pregnant, right? There is no way around it. It happens and it is a FACT. So, can you get around it? Can you excuse yourself out of being pregnant? NOpe because it is a fact. But you can find a new way to cope with that fact. Birth control, condoms, snipping your tubes and so on. We know we can’t get around the fact so we find ways to deal with the fact. Our snacking during the FACT OF LIFE times are the same way. Because the fact happens, it doesn’t excuse yourself to let go and binge. We have to find ways to cope with that fact without giving into the fact. Just because you have sex doesn’t mean you have to give into being Pregnant, just as it is, just because you have rough times, fights with the DH, bad day at work and so on mean you have to eat and eat and eat. It means you have to find another way to cope with these situations. They will always happen. What do you think will happen, supposily you will be thin and life suddenly gets all rosey and great. No, we have to find other ways to cope with the fact instead of eating.

Hmm I feel better and although I am enjoying the smells and such, I don’t feel like snacking. Yes, had a rough day, yes, want to bite everyone’s head off and yes, hate my classes on Sat. but my habit of blogging has replaced this, I will not get pregnant! with junk food that is hehehe.