A lurid moment at a glimpse of the real me
Today, I had a glimpse of the real me and it wasn’t pretty. But I am proud that I identified the problem, what I was doing and then solved it. Let me detail it down because I wanted to blog it and save it for further reference. I feel as I have more of these mometns, the better it bodes for me to stay at goal because I need thiese moments to teach myself what I do , when and how to stop.
It has been getting really cold here and as a result of losing so much weight, I am always cold especially my hands. So, I thought, I could really use some soup. So, I cut up one tomato, 1/2 of a garlic clove, 1/4 of an onion. Then I boiled some water and put all the material in there and let it boil and get cooked well. Then I added some Italian seasoning and various other seasonings. Yum yum, it was so good and a little spicy from the pepper I put must a smidge in there. It made more then I thought and I put it into a big bowel and was enjoying it so much. I started getting full but thought, I should not stop, it is so good and I don’t want to waste what I just made. More went in and I thought, I should finish it, there isn’t much left. Then I thought, wait a minute, what am I doing? I am going back to the same habit that I always have albeit with healthy food. But it wasn’t what I was eating but how I was eating it. I was already full, in fact, a little too much yet I continued to stuff myself just so I could see the bowl empty. It struck me what I was doing what was what I did with all the food to get heavy. I would start with one cookie and then go to two and the package would bother me till I emptied it and was so full I hurt. I did this time and time again and I was doing it again. I put the spoon down and put the rest of the soup in the fridge I felt terrible that I had done this but I had identified what the problem was and that it was a problem so I felt this was a huge step in the right direction. It also showed me how easy it was to slide right down that slippery path of gaining weight. I could not conciously portion myself out from that. So, I thought about it all afternoon. This was soemthing I don’t want to do again and when I get to goal, I have to know how to stop myself before I start feeling too full. Some of my previous blogs had to do with me trying to figure out portion size so this goes right along with my researching for goal. So, I thought, how can I control myself? I can’t relie on my inner senses to tell me that I am full yet, have to work on that. So, what else can I do? Why did I eat too much for lunch? The soup was put in a big bowl. Ok, did I need a big bowl, no, I just had put more water in it so it was a lot more then I could eat. So, I wanted to eat it all because I saw there was still some left in the bowl and we all come from the old school of , have to clean your plate. So, what can I do to solve this problem? Thought about it and thought, what would have been a comfortable portion for me to eat and be satisfied? A small bowl, the kids bowl would have been enough for me along with my other veggies. Ok, so, I have to conciously portion my food out for myself to keep in control. So, tonight, made the soup again and put it in the small bowl and left the rest in a bowl to put in the fridge. Then I ate my supper with my soup and was comfortable with how much I ate and was happy with it.
Solution has been found. I have to be active in my portion control. I know that when I have more there, I have trouble stopping. I don’t even realize what I am doig till it is too late. So, how does this transfere to living lean? Well, if I go to a restaurant, I should have the meal half up immediately before I get it and put in a doggie bag. If it is in front of me, I will keep nibbling till it is all gone. Out of sight out of mind. Also, buy only enough for that one time and get rid of the rest even if it means wasting it. Don’t buy two things for the price of one if it means I grow to the size of two. Buy, worth the extra money to not get the extra. Pretty much, keep away from the packages of chips and cookies because portioning that out is very difficult to impossible for me at this time.
So, these are some of my thoughts. Perhaps they will help others but I know they have helped me today and for the rest of my life
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That is a very good blog. I went to the thrift shop when I first joined buddyslim, on the advice of a new buddy…. I bought pretty, little plates, bowls and a nice dessert dish. Only one of each, they are only for me! But they are so pretty and special I don’t feel deprived. The rule is “no seconds”. My dinner plate is 6″ and holds more than enough (no stacking up the food, one layer only. lol) and I have a small bowl for soup or salad. My husband had some food left on his plate (he knows when to stop) and wanted to put it on mine. I had such a strong reaction, practically shouting “no seconds” he laughed. He said I actually looked horrified at the thought. I was, I cannot allow myself to break my rule or it will become a habit. Thanks for the tip about not buying more just to save money. You’re right, it’s just not worth the price of failure.
OMG.. I’m sorry but I read through half of ur blog and then noticed ur before and after… U look friggin amazing! great job on the weight loss!!! I remember reading ur post last time about the man asking u why u where dieting… I must have not seen ur pics bcus I am really amazed right now! lol…
Congratulations woman!!!
Thanks for that blo, because I was having some of the same issue of always needing to clean my plate. Along with Sandy’s blog I plan to stop @ the store & get my own special plates. Great Idea’s Ladies. Thank You!!!!
I ment blog in my last post, sorry!
Sandy,
That is a great idea!! I will have to do that while I am in the US and then take it with me when we go out to eat. I have been able to contorl my potion here but outside of China is another story so I like your idea. Plus, I can put it to LL (living lean) Great ideas!
Ms weightlos, thanks! It has been a great journey and I am still going and will be goign with it for years to come. Thanks for your compliment.
B4ujdg: It is hard to portion control so that is what I am trying to teach myself but glad it helped. Another hting you could do that I do is I never finish what is on my plate. It is such a impulse that I am training myself not to do it. Just an idea for you.
Wow. What an insightful and personal post. Thank you for sharing. I struggle with portions also. I love the tip on buying smaller table wear for yourself. I did that with some cheap plastic stuff for taking food with me to work and when I’m running around all day with the kids. But I really like the idea of having something nice for dinner or meals at home. ~~(((hugs))~~ Thanks again for sharing!
AMEN! This is so hard for me too..learning when to stop and what are correct portion sizes. You did a wonderful thing by posting this and helping so many of us.
Rachel,
My clean plate thing kicks in too! I’m in the small plate club with Sandy, it’s just too easy to pile enough for a 250lb woman on a 10″ dinner plate! And since I don’t want to BE a 250lb woman… I opt for smaller dishes.
I think you are right on in the restaurant department. I know BEFOREHAND how much will satisfy me, but after I start eating it, I can ALMOST ALWAYS finish however much is set before me, so I often make my doggie bag before starting my meal. Most places will keep half back if you ask, well, here idk the culture there…