From Cocoon to butterfly

The first time. Gosh, I could start a lot of blogs on that beginning but today I will stick to my subject. Today , it was the first time I received a compliment of being thin from a complete stranger. I have been told about losing weight and so on by the people who know me but this was a complete stranger. I was buying some DVD’s(Ican buy them for a little over 1 dollar here each!! ) and I passed by a place that there came such a great smell! I remembered that from a few weeks back, my son and I both noticed it. Well, I turned back to see what I was. They were frying up pastries and it was soooooo smelling good. So, I stopped and bought some and told them it was a pity that I could not eat any. They asked why I could not. I told them I was dieting and all that oil and bread would not do well for me. The man (about 30 something) looked me up and down and asked why Iw as dieting when I was already so thin. I just smiled so big and then told him, I have already lost over 100 jin (2 jin is 1 kg/ 1 kg is 2.2 pounds) He just was in shock as I walked away with a huge smile on my face! Wow, I have never been told that before and it felt just sooooo great. So, although it was smelling so good and I am sure very good to eat, it wasn’t worth it. That compliment was the sweetest and most satisfying thing I could ever “eat”

I know there are many who have trouble keeping their motivation going but really, for me, I find things that keep me motivated. Today it was the compliment (few and far btw when you live in China) yesterday it was going back to exercise class and finding I could do the leg lifts so much easier. Another day it was seeing a gap forming btw my legs. Another day it was my child’s hands going around me and almost touching. I find things that mean soemthing to me. It keeps that motivation really going. Then I came home today and my mil was here with some thick tights for me. Now, let me explain. She sells socks./tights and long johns for a living. I have never been able to get anything from her except kneehighs and even they left a deep groove where the top was and that was her biggest. But she has already been able to give me some pantyhose that fit the other week and today I could wear the tights! This is what everyone else can buy! I was so pleased it fit. Even she was surprised. I just love this! When I go back to the US, I will be able to buy less because now I can get my clothes and under things here and it sure is cheaper here then in the US.

So, I am just so excited. I am seeing my loss slow down a bit but I figured it would happen as I get into the lower numbers. Wish they wouldn’t but it is the body’s way of coping and it knows. But I am not stopping. When I go to the US, I have to have a plan to keep on this journey because this is a journey guys, not a short term plan. I have been thinking about how to keep to the plan while on the plane and then while at home an I am slowly forming one so I will be ready. The biggest thing is that you have to plan plan plan. Where there is no plan, you are planning to fail!! When I have something to follow,  I will and can follow.

I have been doing well in keeping with my , how to say, plan of how to live at LL by thinking about the foods I see and if I can eat it and how. Like today, buying the things from the side of the road. I thought about how they make it and what is in it and how it is cooked and thought, yes, really good but not worth eating it. If I eat it, just maybe 1/2 or less and share with someone and then have to be on plan for some days. Then I thought, it is really worth it then to me to eat it, not so much if so. When I look at a baozi, I know I could have some but only one is sufficient. When I see TO(thin others) eating, I am watching them more carefully to learn. Yes, I love researching things and that is what I am doing now.