Who’s that girl? (think Madonna’s old song)
I was lurking in the forums catching up to my boards and I caught sight of my recent pic on my post. My first thought was “who is that girl?” Honestly, I know myself but my mental image doesn’t match to my physical appearance and I stare at the pic entranced. To see all the changes that have happened from the beginning to now has been astonding! I can’t get use to things at this moment, a good problem but strange. When my husband compliments me on being small, I can’t accept it becuase in my mind, I am not small. Crazy mental problems ehehhe. But I catch my husband looking at my strangely at times though because as he says, he is so use to seeing me “fluffy” that to see me now is so drastic
I am very happy with my loss though. I lost in my face first and then in my upper part of my body but the bottom part still had a long way to go but I am really seeing such a difference in the bottom now. These last 30 or so pounds are all coming from my bottom half, what a relief! When I get ready for my bath, I look in the mirror, not for vanity but with just fascination, who is that girl? I have been teaching over a month with the primary school and not ONE child has said I was fat! Wow, that has been great!! Before, I would hear it all the time, many times in the day> I have to admit, I keep expecting it, thinking perhaps they have saved that comment for when I least expect it. Yes, I know, I am crazy. But really, I know my mental pic of myself is distorted. COmes from all these years of being fat. I am trying to change that but it takes time. Until then, I will go on humming, who’s that girl…..
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You have come such a long way, in such a short time, so no doubt it would take some time getting used to the new “You”. Congratulations…you look absolutley fantastic!
It’s funny how that works, even as I’ve moved into my mom’s jeans (who didn’t look “fat” to me), I don’t feel like she looked. Strange to try to put it in words, but I totally get what you’re saying.
Hopefully we all make peace with our new body and started feeling to match reality!
Our mental images of ourselves are so etched into our psychi that we have a hard time changing that. I am a skinny person in my head. I am shocked when I see myself in a photo or catch myself in a reflecting window. You have done so well. Good luck with the last bit. It is hard to remove those last pounds. You go girl.
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No wonder you catch your husband staring at you strangely…. He’s wondering, ‘who is this strong, determined woman I married?’ You’ve always been beautiful, but now I see what he is seeing, strength and pride. Congratulations.
You look great! I catch myself doing that as well. Isn’t is a nice feeling though
I know what you mean! I used to catch a glimpse of myself in store front windows and things of that nature and think to myself omg how disgusting. Now I catch a glimpse and do a double take, thinking to myself wow, that’s not so bad! hehe
