From Cocoon to butterfly

Life have been pretty good,really good actually. Finished up my first week at the school and now starting hte second week. I was worried before I started but now I am slowly getting into the swing of things with teaching them and how to teach the primary. I am just so thankful to have those cd’s and such. Had a good weigh in., lost 1 kg which is normal but I like that pretty good. Hard to beleive that I am so close to 100 pounds! This puts me to just getting out two more old avis out of layaway and then I get to start having new avis!! I can’t wait. I am excited about all of this very much. By next week, I will be in the 150s! and then by next month I will be in the 60 kgs! I haven’t been there since I was engaged, over eight years ago almost nine and even then, just to 68 kg and no less. I can’t wait! I measured myself yesterdeay after three weeks and I am now seeing the inches going on my bottom half. Still some on my top half but more on the bottom half and that makes me feel much better about those thunder thighs! I am excited about my weight loss, and glad for it because I have been having munchie attacks every day. DOn’t know why. Not hungry, checked my hunger gadge every time but just feel like snacking. Wondering if having my period coming up may factor in it so I am putting this down in my blog and see if I can trace it and if so, I will know what to watch for next time.

I was reading a quote frm Oprah Winfrey about someone telling her not to lose weight or she might lose her personality and she replied, “honey, my personality isn’t in my thighs” It got me to thinking about personality changes though. More specifically, when we lose weight, do we have personality changes? I know many who have gone through gastric bypass surgery and their personality drastically changes. So, is personalty changed by weight loss or even weight gain? Or, when the weight melts off, our real personality shines through instead of being hid behind all the fat? I honestly don’t know. I can only go by my own experience. Since losing weight, I am more upbeat and confident. I am not scared so much with trying new things. I am not as shy as before. Do we change because we feel better about ourselves? What about those who lose so much weight very rapidly and then have a drastic change? I really don’t know but I do know we view ourselves much as everyone views us. It is wrong, yes because we are who we are but we let ourselves be fit into a mold by others and then view ourselves from that mold they put us in. Fat people usually think they are not so pretty , why? “oh, you would be so pretty if…. You have such a pretty face if… and so on. We have all heard these old adages. When we go out to buy clothes, can we find those pretty cute clothes they have for the thin women? Or do they have the flowered, colored, boring, swimming in the arm pad clothes? We think we are not pretty because society views us that way. So, does our personality change because society now accpets us. I will freely admit I am more confident because others are accepting me more and more. I have my own way but I also listen to society.  I am still me but i hope to be better.