From Cocoon to butterfly

When I got back from my exercise class, my husband and I were in bed and he asked me a good question. Why did I all of a sudden start doing thing different. I asked him what exactly he meant (because you know that men and women think different) and he said that I was learning the pipa(instrument) and also starting this exercise class. Things I would have done before but now I am doing more and more. I had to pause to think about that. Why indeed? Why did I not do that before? Why did I feel I could do it now? Well, it got me to think ing about purpose and this quote came up…. 

One way to get thin is to re-establish a purpose in life.
Cyril Connolly

This gave me sevearl thoughts but let’s see if I can get them mapped iout well. I think of this statement as ssaying, being thin can not be your purpose for life. So many of us ladies have struggled with weight all of our lives and it slowly becomes the main focus of our lives is to lose weight and be thin, . For some, they think that that magic number contains all the wisdom of the ages and answers to all lifes problesm but it really doesn’t end there. We will always have to fight. I admit, sometimes I get a little wary of approaching goal. Once I hit it, what will I do because I have always been so focused on losing. But nowadays, I admit, that is becoming less and less of a worry. One, because the problem will be staying at goal but also because my purpose in life is slowly growing branches. Yes, I am still losing weight but I am finding new things to sink my teeth in other then ick. LOL  These few months have been getting better and better. I could not tell you why but I think with my weight loss, confidence is coming back and with confidenc I feel like a cat who looks in the mirror and sees a lion, I can do so much and nothing can hold me back. I have re established a purpose in my life. I am now trying to look better, I am trying to learn the pipa( music) , I have a new job that will start next Monday that is a challenge and I love to rise to the challenge. I have to recreate new lessons, lesson plans, songs and such. I just found a great website that is helping me do that and now I am feeling better and looking forward to that. My DD’s ballet teacher has taken an interest in me and my weight journey and has been talking to me about toning and getting whittled down with exercies that combine toning and ballet. Not easy guys but it is something that interests me and I want to do it. . All these are purposes in life. I am trying to teach my kids more and more about God and I am trying to learn more. I am always trying to learn Chinese and as my free time opens, I will be doing that again. So, I have muli purposes in my life and I love it! Getting thin is not my purpose in life anymore, it is just one of those branches that make up the whole tree. Chop a branch off and the tree doesn’t look so good and some may even whither so it is important but I feel if we have a strong purpose to drive us, we then feel stronger in losing weight. Once we start to find other purposes, being thin becomes just one of them not the ONE purpose in our lives. We need this because once we reach goal, we have all kinds of things to keep us going. If we don’t, we will feel lost.