From Cocoon to butterfly

I had wanted to post this a few days ago but the site was so slow that I couldn’t. For those who don’t know why I am so excited about clothes fitting, let me explain. I have lived in China for a long time and all the clothes here are NOT made for a fat person. Even if you are a little heavy, you only can find the old lady clothes and if you are heavy like I was, there are just no clothes to be found. When I go into shops, they just look at me like an elephant in a China shop. Even at 155 pounds before, I still had a rough time of finding clothes. Well, I was out with my baby buying her some things and went to a shop and saw a dress that I liked. A bit short but nice. I asked if I could fit it. They measured the bodice and waist and then me and they were shocked, I could fit it. You see, I have a pear shaped body and my top has become very small but my bottom still has a lot of fat to it. But anyway, I tried it on and it fit and looked nice!!! I was very happy about that to find my first dress that would fit. I did not buy it because it was too short and showed my fat legs thus ruining hte effect bt I was so tickled pink that it fit!

Then, it gets even better! My mother sent me a bd gift, a dress for me. We struggled for some time to figure ot what size to get me because of trying to take in effect the time it takes to ship to her and then her to ship to me. I said to send me a size 14 but she went to a  12. I tried it on and guess what, yep, it fit! And looks nice. So, I am so tickled. So many wait for that newbie motivation to hit them again but fail to find it. That is because you can’t wait around for it, you have to actively go looking for it and you have to be the one who defines where you will find it. Do I still have my newbie motivation? No, actually, some days really drag on and I get depressed but I keep putting my foot in front of the other no matter what I feel because I know tomorro wis another day. Motivation is where I find it and  how I define it. Finding clothes that fit, wow, talk about a highlight of my life! I keep my goals right close to me. Right now, I am achieving these and it makes me feel great, feel successful. Don’t look at the big goal in the end. It is to far and veiled in mystery but make yourself those min goals, easy to achieve. My next mini goal is right around the corner and let me tell you, to get it realy gets my motivation to an all time high!