observation
I have been thinking about this for awhile. We have all told or been told many times, “appearances mean nothing” but in reality, is that true? As the years go by and I know more about me and others, I would say, not true! I will not dwell on others but on mysellf. I kept a blog from the last time I lost weight and I can read fromt he beginning to the end and I can see such a difference in thinking, not just about weight but about myself. In the beginning, there was such self hatred, such non confidence and misery. But as I read further, I can see that dimming a little bit. As time went on, I can see myself feeling better about myself and so on. Then, as time goes and I get pg and start to gain, that self hatred came back. Why is that? HOw is my appearance so wrapped up in how I feel about myself. I am not vain, not in theleast but it is amazing how our appearance really does mold us. I can now see the same thing happening as I lose weight again, I am finding more self confidence (although having less people commenting on the size of my butt or how huge I am has helped) and starting to appreciate myself a bit. Even when I am big, I never feel that I can feel “dressed up” but now, just a tiny bit, I am feeling that way again. Do appearnces really mean that much? Or is it hte fact that it drives people in how they treat you?
Also, thanks buddies for all the comments you made. DId not mean to scare you about the bones coming out, I just have a strange sense of humor LOL.
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That is interesting…I am going to think about it. Did you see the picture I posted…Love the Fat? I think we have to get to that place of loving ourselves where we are…to get to where we want to be!
I wasn’t too scared…just grossed out: ) Just kidding!
I think it’s just human nature to feel good when we look good. Even my little Silky Terrier used to prance and act all pretty after she got groomed and wore a fancy ribbon in her hair. lol So maybe it’s more than human nature, maybe all living things like to look their best. Could it have something to do with procreation? Some survival of the species thing lurking in our brains? All things seem to come back to the basic need to “do it”.
I think people treat you differently when you’re overweight. I mean you treat yourself differently so why would other people be any different? I know for me, I feel good about myself as a person - but looking in the mirror makes me really really unhappy. While appearances do matter, you have to know deep down that they are not the most important thing about a person.
We live in a society that idolizes thin. If we lived in a society where big was considered beautiful, we would be the most popular girls wherever we went. We are not because we are not the idolized size. If we had lived in the time of the artist Ruebens we would have been the most sought after women. Most of us have been attacked all of our lives because of our size. Even if it wasn’t healthy to do so we would probably still try to lose weight in order to fit in, or at least to feel like we fit in. I find that I still expect grown ups to treat me the way kids and teens did. I also find myself wondering why people like me. I don’t feel like I have value and the only reason I can trace that back to is when I began gaining weight and everyone either came down on me or teased me.
Wow, I think I said to much.