From Cocoon to butterfly

Haven’t we all heard that before, you had better eat your food, children in (place of preference) are starving, so you should appreciate having food. I heard this alot especially when we had liver, yuck! But as I got older, I realized that this has added to the effect of I have no portion control. It is not the whole problem, just hte start. When I sit down to a plate of food, I have to finish all the food or I just feel guilty. To this day, if I don’t eat all the food my mother serves me,s he wonders why.  I am still trying to learn portion control and that is stillmy biggest problem. I keep eating and eating and eating. Now that I live in China, it is even harder becuase we don’t have individual portions, we all have a bowl of rice but then youe at from a community dishes so it is to easy to eat more then you should. I now eat my own food because I have cut salt and fat from my diet. But one thing I am teaching myself is to leave food in my dish. Not easy to do and when I first started, I could not. Now, I do it every time and it makes me feel better because I can do it and not feel guilty. I can only hope that portion control will come next but at this time, I am just eating set foods and measuring very carefully but I am learning.

This week’s weigh in was really good and I am so happy. I kow it was more then usual because of water retension on my last weigh in so this one was really good and I got my avi. I od feel smaller and my clothes are getting bigger and bigger. I have had another comment today from a teacher who has not seen me in awhile and she says she can see I am getting thinner. Makes it so worthwhile.