From Cocoon to butterfly

Whew, this week has been a busy week. Why is it when you go on holiday, there seems to be even more things you have to do! But have been doing pretty good. On Thursday, we went to a wedding for a relative and it was not easy. Got up so early to do hair and get all the kids dressed. Had all my food and snacks ready and I did not have a problem till we got to the banquet. Then it started getting really hard. All that food kept c omuing and coming and boy, would I have loved to eat it and eat and eat. That is a huge problem with  me, portion control. Anyhoooo. I started thinking, hmm, what if I just eat this meal Then get right back to it but I knew, I knew. My inner voices were holding a debate. Lots of people go off, yeah, but you know you can’t

Just eat a little

You know you can’t eat just a little

But I am tired of eating veggies and chicken

You have had chances to have lots of banquets and you ate what you wanted but look where you are now?

Hmm, I am so big and I have such a long way to go

If you eat this you will have a bad weigh in and be depressed all week and regret it all the months to come

YOu will probably get sick from all the oil and stuff in it

Is it really worth it?

NO, it isn’t worth it. To wait till MOnday and see what my weigh in and get my next avi/star, that is worth it. Sure, the food would tastes great but it would only taste good for so long and the bad feelings would last for a long time. The feelings of getting on that scale and seeing it lower, now those feelings are even better.

So, I may have not won the war but I won a critical battle! When I got on the scale today (Sat.) for weigh in for the heartbrekers, I was so happy I did not mess myself up. It will be a good weigh in but not putting it down till Monday