From Cocoon to butterfly

really! Seriously. Ok,  I see you rollingyour eyes and thinking, ok, this girl needs to be in a crazy house! But you know, seriously, I am glad that I got this chance because without it, I would have been much less of a persona nd learned less about things. So, what am I glad about in being fat:

By being fat, it has forced me to look more on the inside then the out.  I never had the chance to just concentrate on the outside and I am glad about htat. Haven’t you ever met a person who was so pretty but had no personality? Or, the only thing they really knew was about their appearance. By being fat, it has forced me to look on the inside of myself and see who I really am. Sometimes it wasn’t a pretty picture but I feel it has created me to be a better person.

It has taught me what it feels like to be a nobody.  How you become invisible when you are fat. It has taught me how to be kind to others. To think about their feelings and not about looks and peer pressure. It has taught me to be really me. When you are in the “in ” crowd, you have to conform to the pressure of the group. But when you are fat, you do what you want. Being fat has taught me to be real, to follow my heart.

I’m glad I am fat because it has taught me that I should treat all people equally no matter what they look like, sound like or where they are from. In being fat, I have learned that people can be really be mean to others just because of how they look. I know that every person has feelings and has a heart and no matter what they are like, they deserve a chance.

In being fat I know that how you treat someone is how they will feel. Self confidence is not just made up by the person but is also made by how others treat you. Think about how one comment on your blog, or someone complimenting you has made yoru day. We can help others so much just by smiling at them, telling them they did a good job or such.

In being fat I have learned that negativity can destroy a person. Many times I have felt horrible and like a monster because of all the comments I myself have said. Life is what you make it and being positive will make it go even better.

Being fat for so long, well, it is not the blame of restaurants, genetics or my mother. The blame lays solely on me. I am the one to drive to the places and buy lots of things. I am the one to buy a pack of oreos and then eat the whole thing. Sure, environment plays a role but the end result, it’s me. In life, I can’t look to blame others for my unhappyness, for my anger or anyting else. I should look to myself first before blaming others. No one can make you fat? Nor can one person make you happy. It is up to ourselves.

I have learned that however small the hope is, it is still hope. Thinking about how depressed I am in being fat, in how others treat me. What kept me going? The hope. When I have over 140 pounds to lose, so much so much, what keeps me going, the hope. It really hit me when I hit my first minigoal, the hope flamed brighter in my life. For the first time, Iw as thinking about that when I go to my brother in laws wedding, I am going to be a lot thinner then I am now. I was making plans, thinking abou tit. Hope burns so bright and it really keeps a person going!

Being fat has taught me that however far or distant the dream is , you can reach it. Nobody can hold you back but yourself. I beleive being fat has made me stronger and a bette rperson. In going on the weight loss journey, it has taught me control and  strength to continue no matter what. It has taught me that no matter what people say, I have to beleive I can do it and I will do it!