From Cocoon to butterfly

Still struggling with those stupid cravings. Perhaps it is the stress of having the kids sick and worrying so much about it? I had thought it was because of when I don’t have so much to do, then it happens but yesterday I was in class and still had those feelings. Hmm, all I can figure is to just wait it out and be strong. After all, how can we learn to resist without going through the battle and letting it train us to be strong. I can and I will do this!! All I have to do is think about why it is worth it to resist??

Single digit clothes,  men actually flirting with me, men taking second looks when I walk by and not becuase my butt is so big, my butt actually looking like a normal butt and not like you can put a bowl and eat from there, looking in the mirror and not seeing my brother’s body looking back at me, wearing a pencil slim skirt, not getting diabetes like my mother, being thinner then my mother, being the smallest one in my family, not feeling out of place next to my husabnd. Being able to lookin the mirror when I and my husband are taking a bath and not feeling so ashamed when I see us , being able to wear sexy nightwear and let the light on,  to get on the plane and not be scared about if the seatbelt will fit me, to be able to wear all the clothes in my closet and then have them all too big! To go to any store I want and be able to buy cute clothes, not just old lady like clothes, to have my clothes fit properly, To not be reminded of sausages when I look at my legs, To weigh less then my husband, to let him be able to pick me up and it not be a labor, to get to my office and not be out of breath from climbing the stairs, to not be ashamed  of myself, to love myself…..

hmm, you know, I do feel better now. From negative to postive. Good idea.