Mindless eating

Thank you everyone, for your comments on my last blog. I should clarify myself a bit. I am not afraid of my children not loving me for being fat but for being an embarrassement to them. You see, things work different here then they do in the States. To tell someone that they are fat is no big deal. You wo9uld not beleive how many times I am told that when I go outside. I try to not let it bother me and also use it to keep my motivated and going. When I am feeling too big for my breeches (a big head, not a big butt hehe) it quickly brings me back to earth on what I need to do and aloso I think start to think about not giving up and why it means so mcuh to me to keep on going down. As a result of peoploe doing that, my kids teachers also tell them that their mother is so fat or their classmates. Makes me feel horrid. I have had my kids come home and ask me why I was so fat. IN fact, today, I was having trouble with my skirt, too big so the back keeps coming to the front, and my son asked me why> i told him I was losing weight so it was getting too big. NOw, he is seven, he says, good, I am glad you are losing weight and then we left for school. So, the kids do mind especially when it is their mother on display. Also doesn’t help matters in that the attention is already so much on me with beign a foreigner and a woman, both of which are very few and hard to find int his city. THen add three kids to the mix and I am so in the spotlight so adding the weight to it all, well, not a pretty picture.

I was talking to my mother last night and think I made her unhappy, not a hard thing to do bahahaha. Anyway, I was telling her I was losing and already lost 27 and sshe then started to say that it was too much and too fast and all that. But the real reason is she really did not beleive me when I told her that once I come back home I would get bakc on plan and loseso it surprised her. Plus, she then started to grump about how she needed toget back to losing weight. She is diabetic and really shoud be watching her weigh anyway but she eats all kinds of sugar treats and such. While i was there, she claimed it was just for me but IIIIIII know the real reason. heheh.

Ok, back to my topic, mindless eating. I have a question for you guys. WHen I am home , alone, not much to do or should I say, not much I want to do, I then get into the urge to mindless eat. I am not hungry nor have any cravings at all *thank God*  But I feell I just want to go and stuff my mouth with whatever I can find. Drives me nuts. Now, when I am busy with owrk or whatever, I am fine but when I am not, watch out inner demons.  I don’t know what to do to stop that cycle. I have a cup of black coffee right now to have something in my hands and mouth but I want to be able to conquer that feeling. Any ideas? Yeah, I could get busy doing something but I really hate being busy all the time and when I get some time, it is a treat, except for that feeling of mindless eating. I know I use to do it before so it is a habit, when everyone was gone, I would stuff myself full so no one would know how much I ate or what I ate. But now, I am accountable to myself and I don’t want to do that. So, hmmm, how to stop this or can it be stopped? wsill I always have to struggle with that feeling?

5 Comments so far

  1. blaithin @ April 11th, 2008

    If you’re home and you want to keep your hands busy so you ownt eat….clean the house! Pay particulat attention to corners, under furniture, the back of presses….you’ll knacker yourself out, burn loads of calories, and who wants to eat when they’re wearing rubber gloves eh?

    And when the house is spick and span, try some embroidery or tapestry…I know…this sounds a bit like a woman’s manual from the 1940s…..but it really does work!

    BTW…that’s HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE what ignorant people say to your kids….you hoave no idea how furious I was to read that. I went through that crap when I was growing up in West Kerry……if someone, I dont care who they were, what status they had…..but if ANYONE ever again said anything like that about me behind my back or to my face….I’d let them have it (verbally of course).

  2. newme50 @ April 11th, 2008

    I have a tendancy to do that too. It’s said you don’t break a habit, you replace it.I’m trying to substitute activity for it. That really is the better choice, but if all else fails , try popping grapes. They are full of water , sweet , and so far, haven’t caused me to have any gains. They are my snack food now. I don’t know how I’d do this without them. If you plan ahead, maybe cut up carrot sticks, or some other vegetable you like would fill the bill.
    Different culture or not, that talk is hurtful. I’m so sorry that you hear those comments day in and day out. That would be really tough to deal with.
    You are doing fabulous. Good for you, showing up your mom. My mother is like that too. I’m now snmaller than her for the first time in many years, and it bothers her to no end! :)
    If you need another buddy, sign me up.

  3. newme50 @ April 11th, 2008

    Hmmm….left a comment , but it didn’t show up. Well, short version. Replace habit with activity, if that doesn’t work for you, grapes, carrot stick etc.
    Different culture or not, that is hurtful.
    We seem to have the same mother!
    You’re doing great. If you need another buddy, sign me up.
    Going to look foolish if both replies show up! *lol*

  4. sandy @ April 11th, 2008

    Boredom is my biggest enemy, too. That’s one reason Buddyslim has been helpful to me. When I start mentally going over what I want to eat….when I don’t really want anything, I get on here and read some blogs, browse the forums, make a few comments and before I know it the urge passes. I also knit and that is hard to do while you eat. When I sit down at the computer I usually grab my water bottle or a glass of iced tea and that helps, too.

  5. 1fatdiva @ April 11th, 2008

    Yep I also feel your pain. I dont over eat because I’m hungry or crave anything, I just feel like something is missing so I snack, but now I have a high fiber snack like oatmeal and lots of water, and come to the blogs. Chewing sugarless gum also help me have something to do that doesnt add calories. Good luck -Dee

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