From Cocoon to butterfly

I am excited for weigh in. Just think, in a few weeks, I will be able to be in the 220s. I can’t wait becuase that puts me even closer to onderland!! That will be so great. Today, baby woke up early as usual. I am telling you, she knows when it is my weekend. During the week, she will sleep later but come Sunday, she is up vry bright and early *sigh* But in a way, i is also good because it gets me up in time to eat breakfast so I can have my snack in the morning. If I get up too late, the timing is all wrong and then I can’t eat the snack and have to wait for lunch and by then, I am soooo hungry. Today, all three kids are home because my in laws went to the countryside for a lunch about tomb sweeping day. I did not let my kids go though. As my mil gets older, she is getting more and mor into the buddhist/taoist influence. She already knows I don’t agree with it and that I am a Christian. Fact is, there are some rituals she can’t do becuase one of her family is a Christian (hey, what can I say, God is more powerful!） She is starting to resist me influencing the kids a little more. She doesn’t do it too much because 1. she is not around that much and 2. I am not afraid to speak my mind. She was telling me that I should not have their names written in church (in the buddhist temple or ancestoral places, you write your family’s names down and they have to always go back to worship there and that way) I told her IF we did do that then I WOULD do it because I am taeaching my kids about GOD and being CHristian and there was no way they would do what she does. She then tried to get the kids to go to the ceremoney and I would not let them. It is a sore point with us at times. I already told her I would not be going to her funeral. I know, sounds crass huh. But you would have to experience a funeral over here to underestrand why. Yes, I have been before and that is why I know.

Still haven’t heard from the school yet on whether they will be signing a contract with me or not. Probably next week. If I had to guess, I would say, they are translating the contract, looking it over, seeing where they can cut things out and where they can’t and trying to think of how to get my costs cheaper. Then they will call and real negotiations will begin. Hopefully, my husband will handle that becaue I stick with negotiating. Too soft realy and I can’t be that way. I am willing to go somewhat lower on my asking price but not too much. I have been at the same salary for nine years. Time for a change!!  As for Monday, strike day. HOpe if goes well and I can get all the money they owe me. I usually can save my part time jobs money but right now, I can’t because of this.

Feeling much better and my resolve is very strong on not eating ick. I was measuring myself today and I still don’t see that much of a difference. Sometimes that can be ,um, forgot the word, not too motivational but my husband says he can see a lot of changes. For me, I know I will have to lose at least 60 and then I can more. I do see some changes already, little but some.